7.23.2010

sentimental

just feeling a little sentimental today because it's been 1 month since we lost our first baby forever.  i can't believe it's already been that long. i am just wondering how the little one would be doing if he/she were still here... would my tummy be growing? would we feel kicking yet? etc...

i'm so thankful that i am able to KNOW that our sweet baby is in heaven with Jesus, and there we will get to see him/her someday! if i didn't know that, i don't know how i would be at this point in my grieving process. i feel like i am grieving better and better everyday, if that is possible. it's just a different kind of grieving...it's not solid tears for days on end, but tears at the most random moments, when i least expect it. my heart still aches, but i have a feeling that the aching will never go away, it may just be hidden based on different circumstances.

 i am still praying for peace and comfort, which the Lord is so graciously giving me!!! i just can't wait for the day when this hurt turns to joy again! but in the meantime: i have this verse to rely on: And do not be grieved, for the joy of the LORD is your strength. Nehemiah 8:10



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