no good words

there are still no good words, and i find myself searching for the right ones all the time. i've had good days and bad days. none without thinking of our precious baby. you will probably find i take comfort in many poems and songs and many i plan on posting here. work is wonderful, keeps me preoccupied, days home alone which were supposed to be amazing; a time to rest and get ready for the baby are now just lonely and sad times for me. most days are not without tears, but i know that God is right here grieving with me. that i take comfort in.
here's a special poem i found which said a lot to me.

Just Those Few Weeks
by Susan Erlin

For those few weeks-
I had you to myself.
And that seems too short of time
To be changed so profoundly.
In those few weeks-
I came to know you... And to love you.
You came to trust me with your life.
Oh, what a life I had planned for you!
Just those few weeks-
When I lost you,
I lost a lifetime of hopes,plans, dreams, and aspirations...
A slice of my future simply vanished overnight.
Just those few weeks-
It wasn't enough time to convince others
How special and important you were.
How odd, a truly unique person has recently died
And no one is mourning the passing.
Just a mere few weeks-
And no "normal" person would cry all night
Over a tiny, unfinished baby,
Or get depressed and withdraw day after endless day.
No one would, so why am I?
You were just those few weeks my little one
You darted in and out of my life too quickly.
But it seems that's all the time you needed
To make my life so much richer-
And give me a small glimpse of eternity

please continue your prayers for jacob and i. of course, i need them most. thank you for all your love and support.

a promise to me:

“Though You have made me see troubles, many and bitter, You will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth You will again bring me up. You will increase my honor and comfort me once again.”   Psalm 71:20-21